JM De Guzman looks back at relapse 6 years ago, says he’s ‘not alone anymore’
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JM De Guzman, who has been open about his past struggles with addiction, looked back at the time he relapsed and how he got back up again.
“I remember [six] years ago, was sleeping in a hotel room. [Five] or [six] huge guys woke me up. They had access [to] my room. [Pinned] my head, elbows, knees and chest while [I] watch the other guy inject something on my right shoulder,” he shared on Instagram on Aug. 25.
“[I] felt weak in an instant. They carried me took me out of the hotel in a stretcher. [Outside] the hotel since my head is tied, [I] see in my peripheral my aunt [and] mom crying like someone died,” De Guzman added.
De Guzman recalled that he cried too while screaming, “Don’t let them take me,” as he was being brought into the van.
“[I fell] asleep for 3 days inside the aero med van. [Woke] up alone in a small room with steel bars. [Stayed] there for a month. [Then they transferred] me to rehab and stayed there for [two] years,” the actor shared.
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“This is because I relapsed after a [one-month] basement and [one-year] stretch in my first rehab,” he explained.
“This haunts me [every day]. in my sleep or while wide awake.”
“For years [I] suffered. I was imprisoned by pain and hate. [Patched] it up with a drug that made me lose everything [I] love,” De Guzman emphasized.
Now, De Guzman thanks God “for everything” and noted that he is “not alone anymore.”
“I pray for happier and peaceful days to come,” he said.
“[Maybe I’m] sharing this to remind other people to stop f**** with my peace or [anyone’s] peace… I [don’t] want to be that person anymore,” De Guzman emphasized, urging people to “be kind.”
De Guzman’s post aptly came with his plaque of graduation from the Self Enhancement for Life Foundation Inc., which he received on July 21, 2018.
Aside from his past addiction, De Guzman has also been upfront about having anxiety attacks. Back in November 2015, he said in a now-deleted Instagram post that he struggled with “anxiety attacks and bipolar [disorder] and depression.”
De Guzman, who went into rehab twice, last year also credited ABS-CBN for helping him recover from substance abuse and turn his life around. /ra
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