Catriona’s ex-beau Clint blames self for break up

MANILA, Philippines – Clint Bondad has claimed full responsibility for his break up with Miss Universe 2018 Catriona Gray.

In a two-part Instagram post on Sunday, Bondad explained that he loved Gray so much that he lost himself in the process of doing so.

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“I was always fascinated with Cat in a way because we are so similar in many ways but in other ways we are absolute polar opposites. However, the crazy thing is that she knows what is better for me better than myself,” Bondad wrote.

“I was massively depressed for a long time and I literally blamed anything and everyone except our relationship. I wouldn’t even allow it in the realm of possibilities,” he added.

Bondad said his “protective personality” made him unable to see things clearly and rationally.

He added how love made him do things the Gray never asked and it even led him to stop doing things that he enjoyed.

“Love truly can make you blind sometimes and make you do dumb stuff… No matter how smart you think you are. I felt like I had to do things that Cat never asked me to do and stopped things that I loved doing and pursuing and even started feeling guilty for simply enjoying life,” Bondad said.

“I ended up completely draining myself and became so exhausted that at the end there was little left of who I once was.”

“I am truly the only one who can be blamed for anything and everything. I failed, because the control was always with me all along. I just realized it too late. She knew I would rather go through complete death of my own persona than accept failure,” he added.

Meanwhile, Bondad also clarified that they had already split before the coronation night of Miss Universe 2018 last December.

“It’s correct that the relationship was over the way we used to have it before the coronation. But we didn’t make it official, in private, until after the coronation,” he said.

Regardless of what happened to their relationship, Bondad said he is happy that Gray captured the Miss Universe crown.

“What would have really broken my heart would have been not seeing that crown on her head.  I am glad things happened the way they did,” Bondad said.

He added, “She will go down as the best Miss Universe in history.”

Gray recently opened up about her break up with Bondad in an interview with “Tonight With Boy Abunda.”

The beauty queen explained that she and Bondad “outgrew” each other during their six years as a couple. /gsg

READ: Catriona Gray opens up on breakup with Clint Bondad