Actress-vlogger Sachzna Laparan bares sexual abuse at age five

Sachzna Laparan reveals she’s victim of sexual abuse at five years old | Image: Screengrab from Toni Gonzaga Studio/YouTube

Warning: The following story contains conversations about sexual abuse, depression, trauma

Actress-vlogger Sachzna Laparan recalled her traumatic experience of being molested by a distant relative when she was five years old. 

In a recent guest appearance on Toni Talks, the “Katips” actress bravely detailed the sexual abuse she endured when she was living with her grandparents. 

Laparan recalled that a relative would go into her room in the middle of the night to sexually assault her while her grandparents were sleeping.

“Maraming beses kasing nagagawa [yung pagmumolestiya]. Nandoon ‘yung hawak, paghipo sa private parts ko, tapos ‘yung ari niya pinapasok niya sa bibig ko,” she said. 

(There were many times that [molestation] would happen. There he was holding, touching my private parts, then he inserted his private part into my mouth.)

The YouTuber shared that every time the culprit goes into her room, she will try to hide inside a cabinet, but eventually she will be found and molested.

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Laparan further said her sexual abuser would threaten her and that he would kill her grandparents and mother if she spoke about the abuse. 

“Tapos [sinasabi niya] na, ‘Kapag sinasabi mo ito papatayin ko ‘yung lolo at lola mo’ na may ipinapakita siyang kutsilyo. ‘Yung mama mo hindi mo na makikita,’ ganyan. Sila lang ‘yung meron ako noon kaya lalo akong natatakot,” she tearfully shared. 

(Then [he says] that, ‘When you say this I will kill your grandfather and grandmother’ showing a knife. ‘You will never see your mother,’ like that. They were the only ones I had before, so I was even more afraid.)

The content creator said that it took a while before she revealed the abuse to her family, and because of the trauma, she was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and continues to seek treatment to this day. 

Despite the devastating experience, Laparan shared that she lifted it up to God and that she has “forgiven” her abuser, even though she didn’t receive any apology from him. 

“Hindi pa nag-sorry ‘yung tao na yun sa akin, pero napatawad ko na siya. Panalo na ako doon. Napatawad ko na siya. Kasi feeling ko, kapag hindi ko siya napatawad, parang hindi ko rin napatawad ‘yung sarili ko.” she stated. 

(That person has not apologized to me yet, but I have forgiven him. I won there. I have forgiven him. Because I feel that if I haven’t forgiven him, it’s like I haven’t forgiven myself.)

Aside from being a vlogger-actress, Laparan is also known as the ex-girlfriend of actor Jerome Ponce.

If you are a victim of sexual abuse or know someone who’s going through the same, you may reach out to the following:

Inter-Agency Council on Violence Against Women and Their Children (IACVAWC) at www.iacvawc.gov.ph or email [email protected]. You can also call these numbers: (02) 8735-1654 local 124, 09178671907, 09454558121.

National Emergency Hotline: 911
Aleng Pulis Hotline: 0919 777 7377
PNP Women and Children Protection Center
24/7 AVAWCD Office: (02) 8532-6690
Email address: [email protected], [email protected], [email protected]

For those who are struggling with mental health issues, you may reach out to the National Center for Mental Health Crisis Hotline: 1553, Landline (02) 7-989-8727, or cellphone number 0966-351-4518 or HOPELINE: (02) 8804-4673.