Markus Paterson admits motorcycle crash was ‘intentional’: ‘It was a dark time in my life’
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Markus Paterson has revealed that his motorcycle crash in 2018 was no accident.
The actor collided into a concrete barrier while in Manila, which left him with a broken leg. He has since been able to walk again after the crash.
Paterson disclosed that he was at a low point in his life and that he did not want to come out alive from the incident at the time. He also opened up on going through depression and facing difficulties while he was in a relationship with a girl he declined to name.
“It was intentional, yeah. I’ve never said that,” he said in actor-singer Kyle Echarri’s vlog during an episode of “Real Talk” on Monday, Sept. 21.
“It was a time in my life that was so dark that when I woke up in the hospital with a broken leg and a shattered kneecap, I woke up and I was like, ‘Goddamn, I’m still alive?’”
Article continues after this advertisement“I never really get in-depth about it but depression is not something to mess with,” the “Dead Kids” star said. “Before I experienced it myself, I thought it was just [some] psychological thing that people can just get over easily but it’s not.”
Article continues after this advertisement“It’s something that gets a hold of your everyday life… When you wake up in the morning it’s in the back of your mind,” he explained. “It becomes the shadow of your shadow and you can’t get over it until you face it and that was my mistake, I couldn’t face it. I was in a dark hole for a long time.”
He also said that he had challenges being in the Philippines while he was 19 and away from friends and family. Though he had a girlfriend, he was facing problems with her on his own.
“Her family…was calling me every day, on Viber leaving messages, and these were her parents. Calling me every day, letting me know how much of a lowlife I was, how much of a degenerate I was,” he revealed.
“I know I made mistakes coming from now, but back then, I didn’t. I was just trying to be happy, and at that time, she made me happy.”
“I was the guy… and I was the guy that was older, I should have known [better], I should have known who we were hurting at that time,” he said.
“But she was the reason why I crashed, she was the reason why I wanted to drive my motorcycle at excessive speed.”
When Echarri clarified that he was “committing suicide,” Paterson said, “I was committed to not waking up the next morning, and I was disappointed when I did wake up the next morning. It was that dark in my life.”
After moving forward from that near-tragic situation, Paterson advised those going through depression, “Just appreciate what you have…there’s nothing more precious than the life you’re living right now.”
“If you’re thinking about ending your life, don’t,” he emphasized. “I’m so grateful for the second chance I’ve been given.”
Following the rough patch, Paterson, now 22, recently shared the happy news that he and actress Janella Salvador are a couple. /ra
The Philippine Department of Health has said that every case of suicide is a tragedy that can be avoided. Thus, people who feel that they may be suffering from mental health problems and need help may call Hopeline hotlines:
- 804-HOPE (4673)
- 0917-558-HOPE (4673), or
- 2919 (toll-free number for Globe and TM subscribers)
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If you or someone you know is in need of assistance, please reach out to the National Center for Mental Health (NCMH). Their crisis hotlines are available at 1553 (Luzon-wide landline toll-free), 0917-899-USAP (8727), 0966-351-4518, and 0908-639-2672. For more information, visit their website: (https://doh.gov.ph/NCMH-Crisis-Hotline)
Alternatively, you can contact Hopeline PH at the following numbers: 0917-5584673, 0918-8734673, 88044673. Additional resources are available at ngf-mindstrong.org, or connect with them on Facebook at Hopeline PH.
