Kapamilya actress Loisa Andalio unabashedly revealed that there was a point in her young life when she wanted to die, dropping hints that somebody caused her to be in that situation.
“Ako po, hindi ako takot mamatay kasi dumaan na rin ako sa point na gusto ko na (ring mamatay). Dumating ako sa point na parang hindi ko na kaya. Siguro okay lang na wala na ako kasi ang hirap,” she said while shedding some tears during the finale mediacon for “Love in 40 Days,” October 12.
(For me, I am not afraid to die because I went through that point where I want (to die). I got to a point where it was like I can’t do it anymore. Maybe it’s okay that I am gone because there will be no pain.)
But Andalio did not succumb to her thoughts and continued to do what she has to do. It was like she was being reminded that she still has a role to play in her young life.
“Pero noong na-realize ko na baka tinatapik lang din ako ni Lord, ‘baka nawawala ka na sa landas mo,’ doon ako nabuhay na parang hindi pala ako dapat nanghihina dahil sa ibang tao dahil kung meron akong kasalanan o meron akong nagawang mali, sa sarili ko iyon, hindi dapat sa ibang tao,” she explained.
(But when I realized that I might be being tapped by the Lord, ‘that you are being lost in your path,’ that’s where I wanted to live, that I should not be weak just because of another person because if I did wrong, it’s on me and not other people.)
With her renewed view about death, Andalio believes that either big or small mistakes do not matter to the Lord.
“Once na tinanggap mo si Lord sa life mo, sa buhay mo, sigurado na sa heaven ka mapupunta. Naniniwala ako na lahat naman tayo, kung choice natin na mapunta sa heaven, hindi naman madamot si Lord. Ibibigay Niya sa atin ‘yun,” she said.
(Once you accept the Lord in your life, for sure you will go to heaven. I believe that for all of us, if it’s our choice to go to heaven, the Lord is not selfish. He will give it to us.)
“Love in 40 Days” tells about a career woman, Jane Marasigan, (Loisa Andalio) who got into a fatal car accident. She became a lingering spirit until she meets her soulmate Edward Montemayor played by Ronnie Alonte.
The series is now in its last two weeks and can be watched on weeknights on Kapamilya Channel, A2Z, TV5, iWantTFC, and Kapamilya Online Live on ABS-CBN Entertainment’s YouTube channel and Facebook page. JE/EDV