Jessie J. Image: Instagram/@jessiej
Jessie J expressed her grief over her pregnancy loss a few hours before her Los Angeles show.
The British singer-songwriter spoke about how her excitement turned to grief after being told that she lost her unborn child, as seen on her Instagram page today, Nov. 25.
“Yesterday morning [I] was laughing with a friend saying ‘seriously though how am I going to get through my gig in LA tomorrow night without telling the whole audience [that] I am pregnant,'” she recalled. “By yesterday afternoon I was dreading the thought of getting through the gig without breaking down.”
The post includes a photo of her tearful while holding a pregnancy test kit, followed by a photo quote by Seyda Noir that read, “Sometimes, love won’t be enough to make it work, but that’s [okay]. It doesn’t mean that you’ve failed.”
Jessie recalled how she has undergone three scans before finally being told that the baby no longer has a heartbeat.
“This morning, I feel like I have no control of my emotions. I may regret posting this. I may not. I actually don’t know,” she said.
Jessie did not disclose who the father was but she spoke about her decision to have a baby on her own.
“I decided to have a baby on my own [because] it’s all I’ve ever wanted and life is short. To get pregnant was a miracle in itself and an experience I will never forget and I know I will have again,” she said.
Despite her situation, the singer assured her fans that the concert would push through as she sees singing as her “self-love therapy.”
“I know some people will be thinking she should just cancel it [but] in this moment I have clarity on one thing. I started singing when I was young for joy, to fill my soul and [self-love] therapy, that hasn’t ever changed and I have to process this my way,” she stated.
“I want to be honest and true and not hide what I’m feeling,” she added. “Not just for the audience but for myself and my little baby that did it’s best.”
Jessie also addressed women who go through the same grief, mentioning how she feels “connected” to them.
“I also know millions of women all over the world have felt this pain and way worse. I feel connected to those of you I know and those of you I don’t,” she said. “It’s the loneliest feeling in the world.”
The singer is set to perform at the The Hotel Cafe, Los Angeles on Dec. 1, 15 and 22, but no further announcements were given for the said dates in light of the singer’s condition, as of writing. JB
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