Heart Evangelista opens up on self-love, fear of losing Chiz during ‘PBB’ visit

Heart Evangelista. Image: Facebook/Pinoy Big Brother ABS-CBN

Heart Evangelista, the latest “Pinoy Big Brother: Celebrity Collab” houseguest, engaged in conversations with the housemates in which she got candid about the importance of self-love as well as her fear of losing her husband Chiz Escudero.

The actress-fashion personality spoke about these after she was asked, “Do you believe that you can never truly love someone if you don’t love yourself?”

“For sure, of course,” she responded, quipping at how vulnerable she would let herself be in answering the question.

“I think it’s not really a secret when I married, and there was a time in my life that I felt like I lost my way. Nagrebelde ako. Siguro almost isang taon din akong nagrebelde (I rebelled for maybe about a year), and I wanted out,” she recalled. 

“I wanted out because I felt like I wasn’t understood,” she continued.

Evangelista said she was clueless as to what prompted her to do what she did, saying she might have been “redirected” because of her peers at the time.

“I went into a path which I had thought I would never get out of,” she recounted. “I say this because I really had to go through a bad time… I really had to love myself first. I can’t keep pleasing you. I can’t keep making everyone happy. I can’t keep buying everybody something just to keep a friendship.”

Speaking about her ultimate fear, she further opened up, “I am scared of being alone. I’m also scared that — my husband is 15 years my senior, so I … know that one day I will be alone in life.”

But the actress stressed that it was in those moments that she had realizations. “I realized that I love them as much as I love me but I have to love myself first for me to give more love to others.”

Evangelista then advised the housemates, “So when it comes to family, be grateful. Never forget your family no matter where life takes you. Give them what they need, give them the necessities, the important things in life, but you have to put yourself first, too.”

“It’s not just being selfish for yourself, but it’s also for the really bad days,” she underscored.

She also told the housemates to embrace their true selves and concentrate not on what others say but on their happiness and their own journeys.  /ra