Angelica Panganiban is hopeful that the coming years will be better after the pain she has been through. Image: Instagram/@iamangelicap
Angelica Panganiban described the past decade as a “rollercoaster ride,” though the drama she has been through seems closer to a soap opera.
The actress reflected on the pains and joys she has experienced in an Instagram post on New Year’s Eve, starting with the time she found out she was adopted.
“Sa loob ng sampung taon, literal na roller coaster ride. Nalaman kong adopted ako, nagtago ako ng ilang buwan sa pamilya ko. Dahil hindi ko alam paano sila haharapin. Nahihiya ako sa kanila,” she said.
(The past 10 years has been a literal rollercoaster ride. I found out I was adopted, I hid from my family for some months. I did not know how to face them. I was ashamed.)
Panganiban discovered that she was adopted in January 2010 after she got into a fight with her mom. She was angry and asked if she was adopted; her cousin broke down and confirmed it, Panganiban said in an interview with “The Buzz.”
By then, her biological mom had already passed away, in 2008. She got the chance, however, to meet her biological father, an American who served in the US Navy. They met in November 2010 after she found him on Facebook.
Panganiban also experienced losing her adoptive parents in the past years. She admitted the pain and grief made her lose her zest for life.
“May mga araw na hindi ko alam kung kakayanin ko pa bumangon. Nang literal. Ayoko nang tumayo. Ayoko na tumawa. Ayoko na. Pero ginawa akong matibay ng panahon at panginoon,” she said.
(There were days that I did not know if I could manage to get up. Literally. I did not want to stand. I did not want to laugh. I did not want to. But I was made strong by time and God.)
She dug into love and forgiveness along the way. “Sa sampung taon natuto akong magpatawad. Natuto akong ipagdasal pa rin sila… At natuto akong bigyan ng atensyon ang sarili ko at ang mga tunay na nagmamahal sakin.”
(In thos 10 years I learned how to forgive. I learned to still pray for them… I learned to give attention to myself and to those who truly love me.)
“Naniniwala akong mas magiging mainam ang mga darating na taon. Ika nga nila, kapag lugmok ka na, wala ka ng ibang pupuntahan kundi pataas,” she reflected.
(I believe that the coming years will be better. As they say, when you are down, you have nowhere to go but up.)
The actress has been one who is open to talking about her heartaches. In the past year, she cut ties with former flame Carlo Aquino. The actor said he might have led Panganiban on and that meeting his current girlfriend, Trina Candaza, could have figured into the fallout with Panganiban. /ra
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