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Sharon Cuneta feels ‘lost’ with passing of Bayani San Diego Jr.

/ 11:34 AM October 25, 2018

Megastar Sharon Cuneta wrote a lengthy, heartbreaking message to one of her “best and dearest and closest friends and secret-keepers” the late Bayani San Diego Jr., Philippine Daily Inquirer entertainment section writing editor.

In a series of Instagram posts on Thursday, she recalled how she found out about the passing of San Diego after being made up for a shooting and said: “I still don’t know what to do with myself.”

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Bayani San Diego, Jr., truly one of my best and dearest and closest friends and “secret-keepers” since he was 18 and I, 22; who was a brilliant writer for many magazines and then finally, the Philippine Daily Inquirer, passed away of a heart-attack in his sleep at the way too young age of 48 this morning. I had just finished being made up for shooting when I found out. And I still don’t know what to do with myself. I was waiting for a good day for him to come and visit me at shooting. I was planning to not just text him but write him a long, sweet letter telling him how grateful I am that he stuck it out with me and stood by me, never asking for or expecting anything in return, especially during the lowest points of my career…and through the seemingly never-ending heartbreaks that only we knew about. I am broken. My heart, already torn to bits, just disintegrated upon learning of the news of his death. The last time I saw him and had a chance to catch up just a bit was during the History Makers Awarding Ceremony. I feel this…I know this…not that I was the only important person in his life, but because Ton was a true, full-blooded, faithful SHARONIAN as well as a true friend, I somehow believe that he did all he could to pull me out of the nadir of my career…helped me with all his heart and soul in his every capacity to do so. When I was slowly, painstakingly saved like someone who had given up all hope of getting out of quicksand…and he was sure his friend was back in whatever rightful place he thought she deserved to be back in…he left me. He left me. He left us all. He left so many who could have benefitted much more from his intelligence, his heart, precious contributions to his beloved field of journalism. I miss you, my Ton…I hurt more because I have saved up so much kuwento for you! I will miss us giggling like teenagers again. I will miss talking “adult” with someone as smart as you. I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH, from the very bottom of my heart. Help me, Jesus. I do not know how to cope with my heart — I don’t even know if it’s still in its right place because it’s taken too much of a beating. I only suppose it is still somewhere in me because the

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Cuneta said she had been waiting for San Diego to visit her at shooting and even planned to write him a letter.

“I was planning to not just text him but write him a long, sweet letter telling him how grateful I am that he stuck it out with me and stood by me, never asking for or expecting anything in return, especially during the lowest points of my career… and through the seemingly never-ending heartbreaks that only we knew about,” she wrote.

The Megastar also recalled the last time seeing San Diego during the History Makers Awarding Ceremony where they had the chance to catch up with each other.

San Diego even wrote about Cuneta’s History Maker Award in an article at the Philippine Daily Inquirer last September.

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Meet the Megamanager and mentor. Where does Megastar @reallysharoncuneta Sharon Cuneta keep all her trophies (like her latest History Maker Award), movie posters and other show biz memorabilia—which, according to urban legend, can fill up a storage area the size of two basketball courts? Who are the special folks who want to build a “little museum” for her? Will she allow her kids Miel and Miguel to follow in her stellar footsteps? What Is her latest business venture? Why is she excited to work with @richardgomezinstagram Richard Gomez and @bernardokath Kathryn Bernardo? Know the answers to these questions, straight from Mega herself, as she prepares for her 40th anniversary concert #my40yearssharon “My 40 Years Sharon” at the Araneta Coliseum on Sept. 28. | @bayanisandiego Read all about it in today’s @inqent Inquirer Entertainment, p. C6. Read more: https://entertainment.inquirer.net/295048/meet-megamanager-mentor#ixzz5S7pcz0rb Follow us: @inquirerdotnet on Twitter | inquirerdotnet on Facebook

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Aside from describing San Diego as a “true, full-blooded, faithful SHARONIAN,” Cuneta expressed her gratitude to him for being a friend: “I somehow believe that he did all he could to pull me out of the nadir of my career… helped me with all his heart and soul in his every capacity to do so.”

While expressing her longing for the late writer, Cuneta shared the feeling of loss for those “who could have benefitted much more from his intelligence, his heart, precious contributions to his beloved field of journalism.”

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Help me, Jesus. I do not know how to cope with my heart — I don’t even know if it’s still in its right place because it’s taken too much of a beating. I only suppose it is still somewhere in me because there is nothing now but PAIN. I have lost so much…LOST so much. Plus I myself am LOST. HELP ME PLEASE. And please take care of my friend Ton. Please Lord, remind him again of how very much it means to me that he didn’t throw my heart away by disrespecting it, treating it like trash, or betraying it or forgetting to love it in return…Thank You Lord for Ton. Thank you, my Ton, for everything…EVERYTHING. I love you. Hug my Dad and Mom and Rafael and Andrea, the babies I lost, for me. I envy how very happy you must be now with Jesus. But it kills me that you’re gone. I love you. And THAT WILL BE FOREVER. @bayanisandiego

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Feeling “lost” after the death of her dearest friend San Diego, Cuneta asked: “Please Lord, remind him again of how very much it means to me that he didn’t throw my heart away by disrespecting it, treating it like trash, or betraying it or forgetting to love it in return…”

“I envy how very happy you must be now with Jesus. But it kills me that you’re gone. I love you. And THAT WILL BE FOREVER,” she added. /cbb

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